Back after 1.5 yrs....

I don't know what brought me back here, It's been 1.5 yrs and when it comes to things like blogging, one doesn't return after such a long time, one quits.

Maybe, it comes from the fact that I've never been a quitter, I might have lost a few battles along the line but never gave up on the war. Or maybe something else.... Still trying to figure out.

So what happened in these 1.5 years, in two words " A LOT" .....

But i am someone who doesn't live in the past, so I will talk only about my present.

And the present is also very pleasant, one of the phases of my life which i never focused on in the past or never intentionally worked on it, never even dreamt about it but yes, had a feeling that when it comes it will take my breath away and now I understand why I used to get that feeling.

It is not about meeting that someone special in your life, it is about realising the fact that how SPECIAL your life can become when that someone comes into it.

A lot more to write, lots of thoughts erupting within and trying to come out and place itself in this post but as of now, this much comes as an honest effort from someone who has hit the blogging mode after such a long sabattical.

My Life, My way

A nice post I came across in today's Newspaper regarding meaning of freedom for today's generation.......

I get to live my life my way. This is how I am exercising my freedom. We all live in a democratic country and everyone must get the right to make their own decisions and be accountable for the same to themselves. My parents have given me this freedom over my own life and I cherish it. I am a grown up and know what I want from my life and how I want it. If I fail, I blame myself and if I win, good for me. This is the freedom I enjoy the most as a citizen of a free country.

Sometimes you have to risk everything in life and let yourself go !

We are not born out of our choice, we are made to become someone else during the first few years of our lives, then one day we find our calling where we belong, we meet the people we want to be with but sumwhere down the line, it all gets messed up big time,we create misunderstandings and lose the most special people in our lives who are dear to us.

Then evrythng is lost & one fine day all we get to see are those few names on obituaries and yet another chapter gets closed.......a small part of what i decoded of the 4 letter word called LIFE !

There are more parts and more meanings to it but this is what occured to me a few days back. This weekend is our independence day and I wish freedom for all. Freedom of choices, because if we had this freedom today, the world would have been a much more beautiful place and we would have been much more successful in every aspect of our lives.

Just imagine, how better it would have been , if we had 10 Sachins rather than one, more shahrukhs rather than just him, more visionaries and more people making it big in every sphere of their lives. Ain't this what we all want? A stage where there is space for more and more people to pitch in, to participate and become successful. I beleive that inclusive growth will lead to overall growth. I beleive in a world where there is no dearth of opportunities and everyone has something to contribute.

Truly, sometimes you have to risk everything in life and let yourself go . The only difference in those who are in the crowd and the ones in the podium are that they took that extra risk. Otherwise, on an average we all are made up of the same stuffs.

Why did I stop writing?

14th Jan 2010 - Yes, this is the date when I had last posted something . So what happened between these 6 months that I had just stopped writing. Even I don't know. But yes, some changes did take place in my life, i relocated to Mumbai with a new new job opportunity.
I started staying back with my folks after 9 long years, feels good, Ghar ka khaana, everything being taken care of, getting pampered once in a while. After all, one never grows up in front of their moms. they are still that little child she had so many years back

Friends , this is something I lost out on, almost 2 decades were spent in Delhi so you can imagine, the whole and sole of my friend circle being based out of that place, Mumbai is good, as in I have those occasional hang outs with a few odd friends out here, most of them my IIFT batchmates who ended up working in Mumbai, but then that's about it.

I feel it is OK. Now I am having more time for myself than ever before, life has become much more structured now, SOmetimes I hate it but on the whole, It is much more comfortable and I am happy with it. And finally, one of my friend, Mr Rawal got inspired by me and started to blog. I knew It would happen one day but the time was not known. Now that i know it, let me see how long it continues, because I myself got into it and then lost it so.......

this was just the restoration part. I am signong out now but promise to be there more often. A promise not made to anyone else but to me, myself because i want to do it, Rather, I need it, It would be fun.......

Cheers !!!

My TOP 5 movies for 2009

Number 1
Dev D
I wish i could mention this movie 5 times in my top 5 list. Yeah, this is the impact it had on me and the rest so many of us. What a start to 2009 it was. The more u say about this movie, the less it is.

I will sum it up in one line that I have never seen such an effortless and fine acting. Kudos to Abhay Deol. He rocks BIG time and Anurag Kashyap once again proves what an amazing film maker he is with this masterpiece. If I am in the jury of Filmfare Awards this year, Abhay deol gets the best actor award and Anurag Kashyap, the best director for sure.

This movie has made a deep impact on my life. Each an every song was just amazing and rocking. There are memories which will never fade away till the last day of my life. There are friends who will never come back.......

Number 2
Wake Up Sid
This one simply touched my heart. The characterisation was so perfect, it couldn't be better than this. The story, the innocence of the main protagonist, the relation between Ranbir and Konkona, the moods and everything about this movie was so beautiful.

After watching this movie with my friend in Mumbai, I really felt that Goonja sa hai koi Iktara Iktara. Ranbir rocks and it is an amazing movie for a debutant director.....I just loved it.

Number 3
3 Idiots
Aal is well. This is what i felt after watching this movie. Being an engineer myself and having experienced hostel life and ragging and growing up with my friends, I got transported back to my good old days. A really nice story with many scenes which made me quite emotional as I could relate to them.

Aamir rocks yet again. A very nice way to end 2009.

Number 4
New York
A very well made movie. It had huge expextations before its release and it definitely didn't let us down. I liked it so much. Especially, the character of Neil who is special to me probably because i share my nick name with him or for some other reasons.

This movie had everything : pain,love, fun and most importantly HOPE. While i write about it, I am already listening to one of its songs which i like so much....'Mere sang to cahl zara' All the songs were so nice and so melodious.

This film reminds me of many new people i met in 2009, some who are still there and some who will never come back in my life.....John was great in this movie and it had fine actings from all the main leads.....

Number 5
TUM Mile....

I knew this movie was gonna be great as soon as i saw the trailers, then the songs, then the actor himself with whom I share a very special association.....Those who know me well can gather what I am talking about.

The story was soooo nice. The moments, the emotions, the circumstances, I can so very much relate to them......There are scenes which just touches U.And the songs are just out of the world..

I felt so so good after watching this movie.....It made me so much happy. I still remember each an every scene from this movie and can watch it again and again. There are feelings which come out from this movie which are hard to explain. If you have missed it, just go for it and U will know what I am talking about.

This movie is the most special of the lot to me for many many reasons.

The pain of losing.....

What is the pain of losing? Is it the feel of loss or the feel of strength that one has to go on with life. The night of 18th December 2009 made me realise this. Yeah, this is the ill fated night when i lost two of my friends and colleagues in a terrible car accident. 2 AM & i got the message that i have lost them & a couple more are battling for life. I was speechless for a moment. These are the same set of friends that i had spent a full day together with them one day back and someone is telling me that they are no more.

I am someone who has very very few set of friends in my life and when i lose them, i know GOD is taking my test. One of them was planning to throw a new year bash at his place on 31st Dec 2009 but that day turned out to be his Tehrvi.........Can LIFE be more mysterious than this????

I am down, I have lost faith, this is the kind of New year i spent.....After seeing my other friend battling with life in hospital, I could hardly control my tears....My heart is bleeding out for them...and their family.....I am crying from inside...I don't have the strength to take anymore of this.

GOD .........please help me if at all U exist.

Soul Curry - Something i never miss out on

Yeah, I am talking about the short 2 para article that comes along with the Sunday TOI edition every week. These are real life stories about situations people have come across in their life and deals with their approach towards the challenges they faced in their lives. What keeps me addicted to these articles and why i look forward to it every Sunday is that it is about ordinary people like me and i can very much relate to it. These are human stories and majorly deals with human emotions and reactions through different phases of life. In fact, i could see a lot of me in some of these stories.

For instance, there was this story about an engineering college guy who was sick of his mom mainly for her controlling nature right from his schol days, his mom being a control freak used to interfere in everything he did , probably she was doing this out of care and affection and somewhere in between she forgot that her son has grown up, become an adult and needs some space. Then when the guy got an opportunity to study in a hostel, he was thrilles as he was going to get his freedom and liberty away from his parents at at last. He started enjoying the newly found freedom and became aloof from his parents. His world revolved more around his friends and there came a time when even during holidays, he used to stay back and not go home. Then came a day when he broke his leg and then he was bed ridden at home and was continuously looked after by his parents. He saw those two souls relentlessly helping him out through out the day to make sure he is comfortable. Then he realised their importance. This brought about a change in him. He finished his engineering and after getting a job he was again posted away from home but this time, after a few months he himself took transfer and went to his hometown and started staying with his family.

I keep on reading such stories and look forward to the soul curry as these remind us of the short and sweet moments of our life ans really touches the heart and the soul.